It is with a very heavy heart that I write this tonight. Less than one week ago, the man that I loved more than any other committed suicide. My husband,the love of my life, is gone and I am so very sad. I am sad at the thought that I will never again hear him call me "babe" or grow old with him or watch our grandchildren play in the yard like he said he always wanted to. He wanted to sit on the porch like old people do, in a rocking chair, watching the Texas sunset.
As all who have read my blogs know, my fight for my husband and for his freedom was a tough one. He was in the United States and I was in Canada. It was hard and it tested not only his resilience but also our commitment to and love for one another and after 18 long months and 3,000 miles we were reunited and nothing was going to keep us apart...nothing but this.
Cody always used to say "I wish I had met you sooner. Maybe in the next life we will be high school sweethearts and we will be together for all our lives..this one and the next and the next after that."
So, to the love of my life...see you in the next life. I will be looking for you. I hope you find me quickly.
Rest in Peace, Cody.
Always,
Kim
Kim, words cannot express how sorry I am for your lost. Praying for your strength and courage during this difficult time. God Bless.
ReplyDeleteThank you so very much Brown Sugar. I appreciate your kindness.
ReplyDeleteKim, I'm so sorry too hear of your loss. I truly hope you will once again be renunited
ReplyDeleteThank you for your kind words Emily.
ReplyDeleteOH SISTER MY HEART GOES OUT TO YOU. MY HUSBAND WHO I MARRIED 11/21/2015. WAS SENTENCED TO 18 YRS IN PRISON. THIS HAPPEN IN JULY OF THIS YEAR 2015. I'LL CALL HIM DOM. MY DOM SCARES ME . HE IS IN HIS LATE FORTIES AND TELLS ME HE CAN'T DO THIS STRETCH. MAY I ASK? WAS CODY IN PRISON WHEN THIS HAPPEN. IF I UNDERSTOOD RIGHT, IT SOUNDS LIKE HE WAS OUT OF JAIL. ANYWAY I WOULD LIKE TO ASK, WAS THERE ANY SIGNS IN CODY'S BEHAVIOR BEFORE HE TOOK HIS LIFE? I'D LIKE TO KNOW SO I CAN WATCH MY HUSBAND THE CLOSE AS I CAN. HIM BEING LOCK UP HAS BEEN SO TRANSFORMING . I FEEL LIKE I HAVE NO PURPOSE ON EARTH. BUT I AM A STRONG WOMAN AND FOR MY DOM THE MAN THAT I AM WHOLE HEARTED IN LOVE WITH SINCE THE DAY HE FIRST WALK UP TO ME AND ASKED MY NAME. I KNEW HE WAS THE ONE. SINCE THAT DAY ME AND DOM HAVE HAD SOME VERY HARD TIMES., BUT THIS BYE FAR IS THE WORST. I WORRIED HE WILL DO AS YOUR HUSBAND DID, IF HE DOESN'T GET TO GIVE THE 15 YRS BACK AT HIS APPEAL HEARING. PLEASE RESPOND. AND IF YOU WOULD LIKE YOU CAN EMAIL ME DIRECT @ dddvigil@gmail.com . BY THE WAY YOU CAN CALL ME DEE SISTER. HOPE TO HEAR FROM YOU AND MAY GOD REST UPON YOUR GRIEVING HEART AND COMFORT YOU. STAY STRONG TILL YOU GET TO THAT NEXT LIFE. ONCE AGAIN MY DEEPEST SYMPATHY GOES OUT TO YOU AND THE BOTH OF YOUR GUYS FAMILY. THANKS SISTER DEE
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for you comment. My husband was actually out of prison and had been out for over a year when this happened. He was actually suffering from CTE as a result of years of playing football. If you see the movie Concussion with Will Smith you will see what he went through as a result of severe brain trauma.
ReplyDeleteYour purpose on this earth, right now, is to support your husband. He will go through many things on his journey inside. He will have his good days and his very bad days and all you can do for him is constantly let him know that you love him and write to him as often as you can and visit if that is possible. I was not able to visit my husband because I lived in Canada at the time. We talked on the phone just 3 times in the 18 months he was down because TDCJ considers Canada an International call. We talked for 5 minutes each time and only because my husband petitioned the warden repeatedly for the calls. I wrote him every single day for the time he was in and that helped him. What your husband needs to know is that, even though he is alone on the inside, he is not alone in life.
Your love for your husband will strengthen you and your strength in turn will strengthen him. Read my post "Keep Getting Up" This is perfect for you.
Peace to you and your family and thank you for your kind words.
Kim
Wow Kim, I just recently got into a relationship with my love who has been incarcerated for 9yrs and were looking at 13 more unless our appeal goes through. Right now we just have letters and the occasional visits and your blog has helped strengthen me.
ReplyDeleteWhen I read this last entry tears came to my eyes..I am so sorry for your loss. I am just happy you got to spend that last couple years with him face to face without the prison. God bless you darlin.
I am glad that you find strength in my experience having been a prison wife. It is challenging and it will test your resolve to stay the course and do this time with the person you love but if you love each other enough, everything is possible. Cherish the letters. Cherish the visits and never, ever take one second for granted.
ReplyDeleteKim
I'm just now seeing this after over a year and we're still going strong. We're about to head back to start our resentencing process...a little less than 12 years on our sentence but he could be home anytime now. Whenever God says we're ready. This journey has opened my eyes in so many ways and I'm so grateful God blessed me with such a wonderful man.
ReplyDeleteHope you and your children are doing well.